I had some really good emails with a girl named Ezrah I randomly ran into on one of my walks downtown on 12-26-07, 2:00pm.  I stopped into a T-shirt shop and asked how much it would cost for a custom-made WPTMJ shirt.  I told Ezrah and her coworker my story and gave them my website.  Ezrah emailed me:

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Hello Victor,

This is Ezrah, aka myspace "Blue Petals", met you Wednesday and listened to you, shared a nice bit of green, and I'm very glad to have met you.... H

What I find myself emailing you now is because I know your goal is to get everyone to not need money, so get people healthy, to wake people up... I had a calling when I crossed into my 20's.... a calling to learn more about the inevitable downfall of the world as we know it. I have toured your site - not everything...yet... but what I realize is that our interests are very similar. I pray to find more people like you in hopes to not need money, to become healthy, to live the ultimate life in full wakefulness.

It's not easy, as I imagine you know, to confront a great deal of people who are close minded to the way of life we both believe to be true freedom. Some people cannot conceive their very existence without an air conditioner, so my hopes to become surrounded by a more natural way of life is burned from one direction and remains determined to seek the truth of a "way out". How do you propose to solve this? I mean, directly? How does one break free?

In the Bible, Jesus told a rich man to sell all his possessions and follow him. Jesus was doing what you're doing. Walking everywhere and teaching about love. Maybe I'm like the rich man who doesn't want to get rid of materialistic things... Hmmm... What a dilemma, eh? Be the person I was meant to be, or be the person I'm told to be. I've already discovered that "products" do worse things to people's hair as opposed to not using anything at all in it. Shampooing it is not necessary. I don't know, just something I've come to realize. I nice rinse will do.

Anyway, I figure the husband would never go along with the idea... I guess here's hoping. As for this email, if you get a chance... I sure would like to know your thoughts on how to get people to not need cars, money, you know - all that stuff that just gets in the way of the real things of life...I'm still touring your site, so maybe the answer is already there.

Determined!
Ezrah
 

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12-29-07

Hi Ezrah,
     Back when I was with my exgirlfriend Chasity, back around the turn of the century, I was experiencing the artificial 
life hardcore.  I had a job(West Telemarketing or pizza delivery), I was paying rent, lived in an apartment with my 
girlfriend,etc.
     Me and Chasity were living in an apartment on Wurzbach and Babcock.  One time when both our cars had broken down 
Chasity flipped out terrified, "What are we going to do without a car?!"  I told her, "Umm, we live in Medical Center.  We 
can ride the bus just fine."  She hadn't ridden the city bus before and wasn't too thrilled about the idea.  I remember that
first morning I walked her out to the bus stop and put her on the bus, like a parent with a little schoolkid. She was all 
scared.  She worked at Macy's at North Star so it was one straight shot from Medical Center.
     Anyway, around then that's when I started riding the bus hardcore(not to mention the bus of course goes to West 
Telemarketing).
     See, I'm 6'6" and had always thought I was too skinny and was self-conscious about it.  Well, after riding the bus so 
much one day I was looking at myself in the mirror and I started to see how I was toning up a little.  I was surprised.  I 
thought, "I don't exercise.  I just smoke weed all day."  Why would I be toning up?  
     It took me a bit but then it finally hit me.  People in cars just sit there.  Sure, people on buses sit there too, but 
there is so much more activity going on, getting on and off the bus and walking to the bus stop, etc.  
      That's when I started to see that we live in a world where wrong has right-of-way.  It became obvious to me that we 
had two legs for a reason that we aren't using, BECAUSE OF CARS.  Cars are stunting human evolution.  We are not walking.  
Cars are evil.  Just look at all the problems and deaths they cause.  Are they really that convenient? Directly because of 
cars we are not walking as we should be.  As we are designed to.  I started seeing cars as death-machines(well, the two 
head-injuries I got because of cars helped a lot too).    
     All this stuff was happening to me, that one day I realized, hey, these happenings would make one great true story.  I 
started following the signs in my life.  I thought, "My life would be a great example of our current state.  I'm going to 
start taking notes and documenting."  Then the blessings and signs started coming.  I thought, "It just keeps happening to 
me.  I HAVE TO keep track of it all."
      Around 1998 or so I decided I was going to try and walk as much as I could from then on.  And so it began.  I got the 
idea for my walking stick and started using one.  I wanted to be a professional walker.  Then I noticed how I was starting to 
"stick out" in San Antonio.  People started recognizing me.
      I started walking all over Medical Center and the NW of SA.  I would walk opposed to traffic and give all the cars the 
peace sign(still do).  Everybody waves back in San Antonio.  
      Anyway, I'm all stoned again.  The best advice I can give anyone would be just to start walking more.  Walking will 
teach you patience and delayed-gratification.  Good things come to those, you know.  For me, the truth fell right in my lap,
it all came together on its own, JUST because I started walking a lot.  It's the secret to life.  If you take care of your 
body it will take care of itself.  Remember how I told you that the liberation is in your legs?
     Ezrah, have you read any of Daniel Quinn's books?  If you haven't already, I strongly believe you will really enjoy 
Ishmael.  If you've already read it then you also need to read The Story of B by the same author.  These books speak volumes
of truth.          

     Back to your letter.  It is easy for me to run across people who don't agree.  Just think, I am putting together a real 
documentary on how ignorance is the world's greatest problem.  So when people disagree and don't listen to me, I win either 
way.  My name ain't Victor for nuthin, hehe.  Sometimes I even tell them, "Thanks for making my story so interesting."  
     If people don't agree with me, hey, at least I am making them think.  That's my true purpose.  Oh yeah, and you can't 
ever forget that there is absolutely no such thing as bad publicity.  I just want people to remember me.  Look at it as the 
world's healthiest ego-trip, hehe.  Or at least the acting out of.  My job is simple, but difficult.
     Now, as far as marriage goes.  And this is all just how I feel on the subject.  I don't think I need a legal, binding 
contract to remain loyal to one person for the rest of my life.  If we truly love and trust each other what do we need to 
get married for?  Wouldn't it mean even more if you stayed with someone for the rest of your lives LOYALLY and never got 
married?  
     It's a simple fact that people can change.  Sometimes you are not able or willing to change with that person.  Why 
complicate things?  Go your seperate ways and be happy.  Marriages cost money, not to mention divorces.  Nothing is written 
in stone.

"It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."
   - Charles Darwin
     
     Marriage breaks people up.  It is the number one cause of divorce.

     Sorry for that huge missive.  I had a good wake-n-bake.

- Victor Antonio

The truth shall set us free!

That's such a beautiful name, Ezrah.

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'ello Victor,

You write well, so it's fun to read what you write.  I hope you are a success.

Hmmm...I wanted to start using the bus for exactly what you were talking about.  If I took the bus, I would feel and look better, I would have time to think (with a radio in the car and the constant of having to mind traffic), and having to pay for gas, registration, car payments, insurance...  That is a stupid waste of money for some many negatives one gets out it.

Do you take your walking stick everywhere?  How do you mean, you had to train to walk?  Or perhaps I misunderstood you.  What are some good things to carry with you when you walk as far as you walk?  Do you have to sleep outside when you travel far from home?  Do you get to feel like the world is your home, rather than some small closed up room surrounded by what I feel are negatively charged emp's bouncing like waves inside a space that's all "plugged in"...  I'm stoned too :)  It's good. 

Um, I don't understand how to use via.  I visit the site, place my addresses in, and don't get anything.  Do you call around, or just know where certain buses go?  I wanted my husband and I to take one Saturday, and take the whole day riding Via and writing down what goes to where, how long does it take...  Just to try it and see where it takes us.  I thought it would be an adventure, but it never happened.  I'm not complaining, because I think I'll be fine even if I go by myself...  I just wanted to KNOW. 

Well, here's to KNOWING
:) Ezrah
 

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12-30-07

Hi Ezrah,
     The bus is your friend!  Cars, like houses and apartments are merely separation-units.  Car's incite laziness and 
inefficiency.  Just imagine all those empty seats being chauffeured around out there.  How wasteful we've become. 
     For the past almost six years I have used a walking stick.  My personal scripture when people ask me about my stick is: 
"When you use your upper body to help move yourself forward, you walk faster.  You never know when you need a 
counter-balance.  Hell, what if I get attacked by a dog??  It's always good to be prepared."  Just joking around I tell 
girls, "Wanna stroke my pole?  Or how about play with my furry little ball???"  Referring to the tennis ball I keep on the 
tip of it.  Heehee.
     There have been sooo many times that I'm walking and accidentally stumble that I realize I would be flat on the ground 
if I hadn't been using a stick. It's like having a third(or fourth)leg.  It helps ground me.  With my stick I feel like I 
float more than walk. Plus, it makes me "stick" out, which is the desired effect I am trying to have.  Look at me!
     In my travels, when I get a place to stash my big backpack(I've streamlined my gear to a mere thirty five pounds), I 
carry around just my blue purse that I had when I talked to you.  Some girl gave it to me in Portland earlier this year and 
I've used it almost every day since then.  It's the next evolution of my mission-bag.  For years I used those lightweight
soccer shoe drawstring backpacks as a mission bag.  The handles on the purse are such that I can just flip it over my head 
and use it as a backpack.  It's a male-purse, hehe.  In it I usually have my green tights for when it gets cold, my 
lightweight rainpants, a sweater, a rainsuit, whatever book I am reading, my little pouch with markers and other stuff.  
     In my backpack I have in the bottom compartment a fullsize mummy sleeping bag, that goes in a small, space saving bag 
and only weighs two pounds.  It's one of my favorite blessings.  I also have a sleeping bag liner which I use when it's 
really cold.  It's like a warm sheet you can zip yourself into.  I can sleep just fine even after it freezes over outside.  
In the same compartment I have a military rain poncho, which folds out to a big plastic rectangle.  It's my portable bed.  
First layer down when I find a camp spot.  
     In my travels there is ALWAYS a place to sleep.  If one isn't forthcoming all I have to do is keep walking and I'll 
stumble onto a nice spot.  When I usually get to a town and need to find a place to crash, I just hop on whatever bus gives 
me the courtesy ride or take off walking and am always delivered to a magical spot.  It happens all the time.
     In the main compartment I have my clothes.  I have a 5x railroad workers raincoat that serves as my backpack's 
raincover when it rains.  I don't have too many clothes.  Like four or five t-shirts, some underwear and socks and other 
layers.  
     I always try to have some gallon-size Ziplocs that I use for my dirty socks.  The ones with the Gripper Zipper thingy.
They're great on the road.  You can use Ziplocs for a lot of stuff.  
     When I travel, I travel light.  The less I have the less I have to worry about(and haul around).  I keep it simple.  
     As far as VIA goes.  You can call 362-2020, hit 1 four times(maybe three), then 9.  It will connect you with a live 
person you can talk to and ask questions. 

     When I first started riding the bus I would just get on whatever one came and rode it around wherever it went and just 
got off whenever I felt like it.  That's an excellent way to learn the city and bus system.  I had many an adventure like 
that and ended up at some interesting places.  If you don't plan things you don't get let down.  Expect the unexpected!  
Half the fun is getting there.  Leave the driving to the driver!
     And also, what do you think happens if the bus gets in an accident and you get hurt?  You get paid!  Why waste money on
insurance?  You can let our rich Uncle Sam pay for it if you get hurt on a city bus.  Insurance, much like credit cards and 
cars are simple money-traps.  Scams.  
     Eventually I even weened myself off the bus.  I still ride it once in a while, but hell, I walk downtown all the time.
  Like twenty miles.  Sometimes I even walk back.  I walked around Loop 410 last week.
    
     Every time I hit a driver up for a courtesy ride I always add, "I'll walk it if I have to."  All the bus drivers know 
who I am and usually just wave me on.
     After experiencing so much freedom like I have, I can be anywhere and be happy.  I don't plan to ever be on any payroll 
ever again.  I would rather be free than rich because I have realized you cannot be both.  I would rather be independent 
from money.  Our money system has become carcinogenic.  I want as little to do with it as possible.  
     If the world is my home, in it's current state, I would rather be homeless. 
     Well, those are my stoned thoughts for the morning.  I hope you have a wonderful day, Ezrah. 

Peace and love!

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  Oh yeah, any relation to Genghis?  I'm just joking.

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Pleasant Morning Victor,

Your email is both amusing as it is wise.  I would rather have wisdom and understanding rather than gold and silver.  Money is as you say, carcinogenic.  As people strive to attain more and more to pay for the unnecessary, it robs us of time and relationships which to me, seems to be the only things we really have in this world.  I'm glad to have had the ones that I have had and am eager to make new and interesting memories as I go along.  I don't think the world has much longer until something tragic would happen to it.  There are several signs that have me believing this.  It would be a good idea to use the rest of the time for love and peace (and for goodness sake, walking).  It heck, if you can eliminate money, than life IS good!  You've ended your rat race!

Your email also answered a lot of questions I had and I'm thankful for you to have taken the time to have written it.  I hope it wasn't a burden...  I imagine you may get asked those questions a lot.  Much appreciation!

The most I've walked was 6 or 7 miles, in Lost Maples, Medina, TX, but I loved it!  It's a nature park with a set major trail (however, I do like to wander off the trail because you never know what you'll see).  On the road, as you're traveling, do you go off the road and wander throughout the hills?  I've been hungry for that opportunity for a long while, but I feel stopped by the fence that seems to stretch endlessly.  It gives me the message that it's owned by someone and not free to roam.  So much beautiful land to discover and I'd like to be ruthless and cross over the fence because I question why borders are needed if there is no one for miles... what a waste of land...  I live on Lockehill Selma and Wurzbach.  There was some beautiful land between Lockehill Selma and NW Military, but investors finally bought the owner out.  Since then, and rather quickly, they have shaved the land of it's beauty.  I was sad to see it.  I'm eager to experiment with some things that you have told me.  It's AMAZING to have met you at the time that I did, simply because my mind had a desire to know how to do it, believe that it can be done... and well now, just have the guts to try.  I can't think of anything to start on yet, some goal to have that could get me close to what you have attained.  Um.... might you have any suggestions? 

Well, I think you're awesome Victor.  Your are the personification of love that I hope spreads like wildfire. 

As for Genghis, I've always hoped I had some relation.  I don't know everything about him, but he was remembered, so that's cool :) Or maybe a relation to Kubla.  I do know that my last name means Prince, my middle name means Princess, and my first name means God's helper.  Hope that means I have some sort of important role in life, cuz the life I lead right now doesn't feel that way.  I'll keep up hope though, it's all good.

Thank you, Victor, for emailing me.  Hugs,
Ezrah Sadia Khan

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12-30-07

Hi, Ezrah,
     I'm glad to hear I was able to cover some unanswered questions you had.  It was no burden at all writing you.  I'm done 
for the moment typing up stuff for my website and I will be posting the update right before I leave soon.  You'll be on 
there as well as your picture.  So, besides walking and stuff I don'thave much else to do on the computer.  
     It's been quite refreshing communicating with you.  I'm glad I didn't decide to walk down Evers instead of Bandera that
 day.  I was considering it.  
     I have been to Lost Maples before.  When I wasyounger.  It really is beautiful.
     Yeah, I hate construction and urban sprawl.  Case in point, the woods behind my mom's house.  We moved to this 
neighborhood in 1990 and I was delighted there was acres of woods right behind the house.  
     I almost literally grew up in those woods.  I was out there almost every day cutting trails and hanging out with my 
friends.  It was amazing having a forest in my backyard.  Those woods were the major reason I acquired so much respect for 
nature.  Those woods meant the world to me.  Hell, I lost my virginity in those woods.
     Then years ago the tractors came and raped my pristine paradise.  There is now a neighborhood where my forest used to
 be.  I cried.  
     But, I will have my sweet revenge, kind of, hehe.  See, my mom lives over on Old Tezel close to Guilbeau.  Well, I've
been walking up and down Old Tezel for over ten years.  There's not that much room to walk on without walking in rocks and
stuff.  Well, I've been planning this for years.  I already have a can of spraypaint and everything.  Before I leave I'm
going to spraypaint the fence of the new neighborhood.  Right at the busy stoplight on Guilbeau.  
     I'm not going to write anything bad.  In big capital letters I'm going to spell out, "OLD TEZEL NEEDS A SIDEWALK."  
There is no excuse why they haven't built one, with that new neighborhood there and everything.  
     I've been wanting to do this for years now, but have always chickened out at the last minute.  Actually, it would be
really nice if I could somehow manifest a getaway car.  I've been asking my friends.  I want to tag the fence and then book
it towards Houston and start my East Coast trip.  
     Everyone that sees that will know exactly who wrote it, since I've been walking up and down Old Tezel with my crazy 
walking stick and rainbow beanie for years giving every car the peace sign.  It's more of a publicity stunt for my cause, 
much like walking around the loop was.  I'm going to be really glad to have it in my story.  
     Wouldn't it be sooo awesome if they started building a sidewalk?  It's just so obvious there needs to be one there.  
You should see it then you would understand.
     Sometimes I go off the beaten path, but usually I walk the highway if I'm going from town to town.  Reminds me of an
 Emerson quote.  "Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."  If I'm not 
expecting a ride I'll even walk on the opposite side of the highway, facing traffic so I can give cars the peace sign.
     There's a lot of nice walking in San Antonio.  I'm a bit partial to Leon Creek because it's closeby.  Ever head of OP 
Schnabel Park on Bandera and Braun?  When I was little I used to live in the neighborhood in front if it, Woods End, so I've
been going to OP for years too.  There's plenty of great hiking and an awesome creek.  There's some cliffs and there's even
a badass treehouse on top of the cliff with an awesome view of Medical Center in the background.  
     Now, have you talked to your husband about the freedom you yearn?  How does he feel about it?  Are you guys like-minded
in that respect?  It would really benefit you both if you guys started the walking thing together.  Reminds me of a Mark 
Twain quote.  "Grief can take care of itself, but to get the true measure of joy you have to have someone to share it with."
Sure, you can do it on your own, but he is your husband, after all.
     Well, I'm going to go for a walk in the neighborhood and see if I can get smoked out.  Thanks again for writing me.  

Until next time,

- Victor Antonio Gruber

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Hi Victor :)

Glad to know that I'm not a bother, because writing to you is fun.  Fate is good.  I don't know why you went the way that you did, but I'm glad you did.  I like to share my ideas with others in hopes that my ideas will get stronger. 

Yesterday, as I hung around the apartment being stoned, I had a crazy idea to build a 2 person helicopter using pedals, a platform, and umbrella material...I want to draw the idea out, include my knowledge of physics, then make a small version using Popsicle sticks and paper and weights.  Tim, my husband thinks this is just on one of my crazy ideas, but I think it's something inside seriously wanting to break free. 

I get like that when I'm high and I really have fun with it.  I invent, I get very earth-minded, and I don't think my ideas are crazy.  They revolve around the notion that man doesn't need money and never has.  It's something that was created to control man from doing what each and every person was truly created for.  As unique as every one person is, we all can have something to contribute. 

But I know the world has dwindled, sadly.  Even children have lost much of their imagination because of video games and television.  I don't think Tim believes it's possible to live without "stuff".  He doesn't seem interested in taking a little adventure, he doesn't like camping...  I'll find a way though.  There's got to be some sort of lure I can think of to show him that we don't need much to live. 

I proposed we buy our own land, live in a simple cabin, realize our basic needs, then build more of what we want using adobe materials.  Hay is inexpensive, mud is free, and water isn't hard to come by, currently.  The labor is the real cost, but there are some good benefits from building your own home. 

Apparently I have a vitamin D insufficiency.  Ironic, huh!?  I mean, there's so much sun and yet I don't have enough of it...  So, I'll get some while I build.  I'll sweat (good for getting rid of toxins),  build muscle (BIG bonus to lose weight from being in creative mode and working mode and not feeling that desire for food because I get less hungry the more I do), and besides,  I've always wanted to sculpt my own home and make it unique!  Tim is good with his hands, I know I can get him involved!

So, I love Tim very much, wouldn't risk losing him, so I've got plans to enroll him in my possibilities.  I don't let him tell me something is impossible.  I don't like hearing that from anyone, because too often, it really is possible...   It's just that no one has thought of it yet.  I'm going to have to draw until he sees it with me.  Good thing that I'm gifted there.
It was great- on our honeymoon, we drove to Colorado Springs and we took bud with us, so I was smoking and getting creative.  I had my sketchpad for such the occasion, and I started drawing ideas for water energy, wind energy, and well... inventing.  It's not like it's hasn't been done before, but I want to understand how and why it works, I don't want to buy some kit and not fully understand what I've got.  With simple materials, one can accomplish much.  I mean, you're walking proof of that.  I feel excited :)

Good luck with your mission with Old Tezel Road.  I know that feeling of being robbed of your playspace.  Not so much in the same way, because at some point in my childhood, I was forced to stay inside and shut all windows and doors so that neighbors wouldn't know it was just me and brother at home alone.  I was kinda a tomboy - rough for a girl, played hard and loved being outside.  It was hard being stuck inside, so my addiction became tv and food.  Not much good it did me!  So if I had next door privilege to a forest, I would have invested hours into it and more than likely balled my eyes out to know that it would be permanently removed from me.  There are places in there that are like havens - that few ever venture to glimpse.  Also there is no traffic so it's nice and peaceful and open to your imagination.  I'm glad you know that you got experience that.

When do you hope to go to Houston?  Do you ever track what the weather predictions will be?  It's supposed to get very cold on Wednesday.  Like 31 F or something at it's coldest. 

Do you meet a lot of homeless people? 

I went to OP maybe twice.  I don't know much about it, didn't really go far enough.  I hope to find it as cool as you do.

I'd like to give you something, so if I see you again and should have some, it's on me :)  Happy to share!  Love and Peave :)

Wow, I wrote a lot!  I should walk as much as I write ;)  I hope you have a great New Year's Eve.  And officially, tonight it will be 2008, yet another election year, so please, be as safe as you can be around cars!  I hope you stick around for a long time on the planet, making good times and spreading your message :)

Peace and love,
Ezrah

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12-31-07

Hi Ezrah,
     Anything is possible and you have to start somewhere.  In fact, everything is.  

"It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow."
- Robert H. Goddard

"Only those who attempt the absurd will achieve the impossible."
- M.C. Escher     

     You know me and my quotes. :]  Today I went out in the neighborhood and manifested me some marijuana.  Now I'm ready.
I'm going to start walking around the loop again tomorrow.  I'm going to go in the other direction though.  
Counter-clockwise.
     Marijuana will open your mind.  That's why it's illegal.  Because free-minded people are harder to control.  It's the 
key to my mission.
     Does Tim smoke weed?  Have you talked to him about me?  Tell him to read my website little by little and see if he 
takes the bait.  
     I'm not sure when I'm going to leave.  I thought I'd go on New Year's but I'm still waiting for this friend I made in 
Missouri a couple months ago, to mail my some of my stuff I left at her house.  I left one of my cool shirts that I wanted 
to have in New York.  
 
     Therefore, since I'm not leaving soon, I have time to walk around the loop again.
     I don't usually check the weather.  If it rains I'm ready to walk in it.  I much prefer walking in rain than in blazing 
hot sun.
     I'm not sure when I'm taking off, but when do you usually work?  It'll take me a couple days to walk around the loop, 
but when I'm done I'll be sure to stop by again and say hello.  Maybe if I'm too tired I'll ride the bus instead of walk.

Sorry so short this time.  :P  I gotta go.

Peace, sister,

- Victor Antonio

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Hello Victor,

I like to prove people wrong when it comes to my ideas...  I believe in it so much, I won't let others' opinion sway me, sometimes.  Other times, I give in and say to hell with it, just do things their way, but you know, it's not as fun!

Going around the loop, I wonder how long that takes.  It's chilly too!  I hope you're safe. 

I told Tim about you, he thinks you'd be a nice person to meet.  And he used to smoke, until he had to find a job (which now he works at RackSpace - a no tolerance place).  So, he drinks beer instead and plays video games. I get very sad really, that he'd rather do that than spend time together.  He seems to think we spend enough time together, but I never get enough.  Love is an addiction!  I want to do things with him, create, explore, learn, whatever...  It's hard to do with someone who's got his own addictions that have nothing to do with me.  I can't stand games (well, most of them) and I think drinking is a waste of money, brain cells, time, and fridge space.  I think he perceives you as a free loader instead of a person on a mission.  He knows about your site, and I had hoped he would have the same curiosity as I, but we are two different people trying to intertwine our lives through compromise.  I'm happy he has a good job, I just don't want us to be dependent on it.  The more money you get, the more you spend and you end up just as broke as before.

I totally agree with the true reason pot is illegal, it does free your mind, in a most wonderful way!  It makes conversations great, it makes people relax and become more receptive to another person as a whole (not necessarily in conversation, as I often realize my brain isn't keeping up with what they are saying), but there is a breakthrough in body language that relays peace and love and harmony... these things of which bring about a need for a money less society...  but money has a great value of enslavement for the powers that be.  Humans are like batteries for an economic machine that most believe is the only way to live.  But that's why is't absolutely wonderful to have met you, to meet someone not enslaved by that lie.  You see, I know it's a lie, but I feel stuck in it, powerless to do anything...  But, writing to you, I feel that I  have some bases to start with.  Riding the bus will have to be one of the first ones for me.  The idea of prolonged gratification (or however you put is) sounds very interesting.  I've been wanting more time to read and get to know myself.  A couple of hours, stoned on a bus, getting to work, will make a Niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice workday.

So you're walking up to New York?  WOW!  I'll have to read about that!  I hope it's at least cloudy then for your sake.  I don't like how bright the sun is getting.  But, it is written in the Bible, that it will become 7X brighter in the end.  I know, you don't believe what you read, but I think Revelation to say the least is AWESOME (even if you only considered it fictional).  I just saw the trilogy for the Lord of the Rings, and Revelation is its own epic. 

I usually work from 1030-530, but I'm hoping to reduce my hours so I can work for myself freelancing.  That's what I consider myself.  It's more fun :)  Hey, if you ever want to call me, my number is 210.831.0110 .  I would love to have you meet my husband.  I want my husband to feel assured that you are not a threat, because I like talking to you and would love to take a walk with you somewhere.

I'm due to visit my friends in Houston, but I don't know when.  That's why I was wondering, to maybe start you off on your journey.  They aren't pot smokers, but I find that they are people.  They know I like pot. 

If I know you're coming, I can see about leaving work early.  The day I saw you, I did manage to walk some, behind my home there is a creek that runs to some train tracks.  Tim and I once walked the tracks for a couple of hours.  You can see some pretty interesting things there.  We found  tree house that looked well built and that had a sign on it reading "God loves you" or something to that effect. 

Victor, whatever happens, I'm really glad to have met you.  You know at first, I was wondering if you were a walking book, reciting all the things you had memorized so that you could pass on your word smoothly onto other people.  Whatever grades you got in school wasn't the true measure of what you are worth (but I'm a little anti-school to begin with).  Conversing with you via email has shown me you have great character and discipline to keep you doing what you do. 

Well, I hope you are warmed as you walk, because I know it's cold!
Hugs,
Ezrah

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1-2-08

Hi Ezrah,
     I just got back!  What a crazy ride it was.  Yesterday morning I went outside to catch the bus at7:09.  Oh nine of the 
hour is when it usually passes.  I went out there five minutes early and waited until like 25 and it never came.  Shit!  New
Years day.  Sunday schedule, no bus.  I said screw it, I'll walk to the Walmart and catch the 88 to Bandera/410.  I had such
a nice walk to the Walmart that I decided I'd just walk to 410.  So to start off my hike around the loop I had a six or 
seven mile warmup.  
     I went South, towards Ingram.  Counter-clockwise this time.  I was walking facing oncoming traffic and giving people 
the peace sign the whole time.  
     I walked by some fenced-off construction area and saw a black hoody hanging on a pole on the other side of the fence.
The gate was all messed up and I was able to crawl under it and I grabbed that hoody. I thought maybe I could use it if it 
got really cold.  
     I walked about halfway around the loop that first night and ended up at the gas station I had crashed in the woods 
behind last time I walked around the loop.  I layered up, including my new hoody and lay down on the same board I had used 
last time.  I crashed out around eight.  Well, at around midnight I woke up all shivering and cold.  I was shaking so much 
it was impossible to get back to sleep(now just imagine if I didn't have that hoody!).  
     I was smoking and after about an hour it dawned on me that the only way I was going to get warm was if I started 
walking.  I got up, packed up and started hoofing it.  I walked a couple more hours or so and then stumbled onto a big 
schoolbus.  As I was walking closer to it I thought, "Man, it would be so cool if I could somehow get in that bus.  It would
probably be warm enough to get to sleep in."  Well, as I got close to it I noticed the door was wide open!  Score!  I 
crashed out again around 3am.  At five I woke up shivering again.  Wups, better start walking again.  
     When I got hungry I'd hit up taquerias.  The last one I went to I walked in and all the employees were busy.  So I just 
stood there waiting to ask to talk to the manager.  I was wearing my WORLD PEACE THROUGH MARIJUANA shirt.  All of a sudden 
this guy with two little girls comes up and hands me five dollars!  He tells me, "If everyone got stoned there wouldn't be
any wars!"   Exactly!  
     I didn't want to spend the five dollars at the taqueria so I went ouside to look for a dollar menu I could buy lots of 
burgers with, or something.  Then I saw a Chinese buffet place.  Those are great fuel-stops.  I went in there and the buffet
was like $5.90.  I told the pretty girl I only had $5.26.  She frowned and I told her, "Come on, it's for a good cause and 
exposed my shirt.  Of course she let it slide, hehe.  
     That Chinese food fueled me up all the way back to Bandera.  I was hungry again so I thought I'd go hit up Taqueria
Jalisco #11 on Bandera close to Wurzbach.  You know, the one that has the train-caboose attached to the building.  It used 
to be a Wendy's a long time ago.  Anyway, they were closed and I was bummed thinking I can't walk home on an empty stomach.
Then I remembered the Jalisco #8 over close to Bandera and Huebner.  
     I hoofed it all the way over there and got blessed with a big enchilada dinner.  I took a picture of it and everything.
     Well, I logged the whole walk on my tape recorder and it'll get way more detailed than that.  I was wearing my clown 
wig the whole time too.  In the end I got home today around eight thirty.  I totally took my
time today, not to mention my feet and knees were(are) sore.
     That sucks about Tim's drug-testing job.  Doesn't sound like it's that good a job at all if you can't smoke weed, hehe.
No amount of money is worth that curse.  
     Don't you see?  That's one of the ways the government gets people to drink.  They know if they make it where people 
can't smoke weed, they're going to drink.  And alcohol breeds ignorance.  Ignorant people are easy to control.  The 
government knows this.  They wish everybody was an alcoholic.  They'd have it made.
     Hmm, could a ride to Houston possibly entail a small favor?  Getaway-car for my great fence marking.  I mean, it's not 
like they would even put me in jail or anything if they caught.  Just a ticket for vandalism(I think).
     Well, I am extremely beat right now.  I hope my legs still work in the morning.  I gotta crash.  My body needs to 
repair itself.  I should take some multivitamins before I go to sleep.  
     Oh, and assure Tim I am harmless in every aspect.  Platonic relationships only, even if them.  Love will be my reward
(if i can ever find a girl who can keep up with me).  There's work to be done.  I am an extremely busy man.
     Okay, signing off and shutting my body down.

1Love,

- Victor Antonio

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Hi Victor,

I am very wow'd about your recent adventure.  I'm happy that you found some better places to snooze on your journey around the loop.  I wasn't sure when you planning on going out to do this - You know you chose some really cold nights.  It got down to under 30 degrees.  I thought about you and had hoped you would wait until things got a little warmer, so I'm thankful that you found the hoodie and the open bus.  I believe God's on your side.  I think when the marijuana plant was designed, it was designed for humans to use in all of it's many ways.  I know there is a receptor in the brain specifically geared to receive THC.  We're MADE for it!  Also, all the best products come from hemp.  Clothes, ropes, metal - all outlast oil products.  Hemp seeds are very healthy, I personally have 4 products made from hemp that are great moisturizers and shampoos.  Even the handling of hemp is good in that the processing is very hands on and can help get the body get in shape. 

I never thought I would be such an advocate of it.  I was very on/off about it for a long time.  I liked it, but I felt guilty about it.  As I longed for it, I would look for videos of it on google video, (hey you should put something about yourself there!!! youtube or something and link to your page or something)  and that's how I found out about Jack Herer.  I really appreciate his extensive research into the plant, from the history to the potential.  It reveals how and why hemp got a bad name.  It's going to take a lot of people getting cured of ignorance and fear from the propaganda that was spread and is still being told. 

Did you get to meet anyone or talk to a lot of people?  I don't know when I'm going to Houston, but I think I could swing being the getaway car.  I'll try to make plans sooner than later.  You don't want to wait until it gets a little warmer???

I can't write much today as I'm at work, left alone for the rest of the day and I have some projects piling.  Wish I could snooze with some sunshine and heat nearby - and don't forget the bud...  I have some on me and I know it'd be somewhat safe to do it here, but I get a little confused on what I am doing as there have been some new developments as of late... just more stuff to keep track of and unfortunately even without being high, it's hard to keep track of.  I really have a lack of love for this stuff - either that, or I'm just tired of doing what others want, rather than doing what I want.  One day though...  I've got so many dreams!

Oh and I'm working on making my walking stick :)  Tim and I found a really nice one in the forests of McAllister about a year ago.  It's too tall for me right now, but I'm going to make it just the right height for me and put a burgundy glossy coat of polyurethane.  It should hold up well then.  I've always wanted one.  I am going walking today, but I'm going to the gym where I'll walk in the dark watching a movie.  Normally I walk for an hour, then leave, but this time, I'm going to walk for the whole movie.  I know it's not as good as going out, but hey, it's a little cold, I'm not in shape, but this way, I'll get my body used to longer walks and get myself out when I've gotten more used to it.  Besides the pass was free, so I want to take advantage of it. 

I hope you are feeling better and rebooting well :)  You're a great pen pal!
Peace and Victory for dear Victor,
Ezrah

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1-3-08

High Ezrah,
     I have personally met Jack Herer(http://www.havethisbook.com/journal/052607.htm 9:31pm).  I've shaken his hand.  Did 
you notice I have his book on my site?  I've been reading it recently.  I'm on Chapter 3.  
     I was more concentrated on walking than talking to people, but I did pass out my website plenty.  I didn't tell anybody
my story.  
     That's awesome that you'll be able to be my getaway-car.  Yesterday I received that package I was waiting for from my 
friend and after I rest up for a couple days I won't have anything else tying me down to San Antonio and will be free to 
update my website and go.
     Temperature isn't too big a factor for me.  I rather it be freezing cold than blazing hot.  As long as I have my pack 
I'll be fine.  I've got a mummy sleeping bag with a liner.  If it gets really cold I can just put ALL my clothes on and get 
in my bag and be fine.  I'm a survivor, remember?  :]  
     Plus, I don't think I'll be right on the East Coast anytime soon.  I want to take my time so when I get over there 
it'll be the dead of summer and a lot more conducive to going North.  
     New York, here I come.  I want to fly my marijuana sign right in front of where the twin towers used to be.  Hope there
aren't any snipers, hehe.
     Yeah, work sucks when you don't love what you're doing.  Slaving for other people isn't anyone's purpose in life.  
Money is the grand distraction.
     I had been meaning to ask you.  Our correspondences would make a great chapter for my website.  Would you mind if I 
posted our email-life on my site?  If you don't mind, read through our emails and let me know if there is anything you want 
me to exclude first.
     Believe in your dreams and never let them be in any way limited.  That's awesome about your walking stick.  Proper 
walking stick height is at your armpit.  Mine's five feet long.  
     Trust me, I know how walking can be circumstantial(not that much for me anymore, hehe).  If it was really cold and I 
had a free gym to use I wouldn't pass that up.  Walk on, sista.  
     I am really proud of you for the initiative you are taking with walking, Ezrah.  It's the right track.  Step by step
(literally).
     I also want to have another WPTMJ shirt made before I leave.  I'm sure I can get my mom to pay for it.  I want a good,
durable one that won't fade like the ones I make with markers.  I guess I should let them dry out all the way before I wear 
them, hehe.
     Thanks for being a great penpal too.  One good turns deserves another.

Peace, sister,

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  You are what I like to call a hippie-in-hiding, just yearning to break free.  Liberate yourself from mental slavery.  
Remember, None but ourselves can free our minds.  BM

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Hello Victor,

I hope I can help cure ignorance too.  I'm not as brave a soul to risk not making money , but I want to be unafraid of letting people know I'm FOR it.  It's a really really good thing!

It was a welcome surprise to see you again.  Hope the KB was a kind buddy to you. 

Do you vote or keep up with stuff going on anymore?  It's not like you can avoid it.  Alerts of the latest anything pops up everywhere.  Distracting stuff really, cuz in the end, you're still doing the same thing. 

I gotta tell you my dream - I like the idea of living where you don't need money, but you do work.  You don't work for money, you work for people.  You get projects, you tend to them, and they tend to you in their own way, but every need is met and there is time for peace.  It's time for peace, but I don't think it will come the way we are hoping.  Sorry if I seem a little glum.  High above some bits of normal wisdom treads a higher ground.  I'm high and kinda loftily going about.  I just got done working on some graphics for bexar county young democrats.  I hope they like what I sent.  Wanna see?  You can see the comparison from theirs (left) and mine (right).  I'm trying to attract you thinkers. 

Oh, I still need to work on your shirt, but I'm beat tonight.  Won't get to it until maybe Sunday.  Today was hard.  I didn't sleep much last night.  I think the walk took more out of me or I wasn't hydrated, because I had a headache until early this morning when I decided to take some advil.  I felt very dream like when I woke up.  I wasn't sure I was safe to drive, but I got to work and the day was busy.  It was a little more run around then usual, so I'm very happy to have my Sabbath, Saturday.  I really do try to keep all 10 commandments.

I hope you don't mind that I tell you about my faith.  I won't change you, I just want to tell you what I experience it so maybe my friend would be saved and victorious on new levels.  Anyway, what I was going to say is that I have asked Jesus to help me with weight.  Well, I am finding I have a lack of hunger.  Without trouble, I'm able to stay away from eating too much.  I have experienced that in my life and it becomes a bad habit.  I need to make a good habit and keep small in mind for proportion, but what really helps is not having hunger.  I think that's cool.

In another event, I had a problem watching tv.  I watched it too much.  Many years of my life were spend inactive and watching television.  So, for a long time, in my little world, people thought and felt like people from tv, without substance and being superficial in whatever way possible.  I had to blend into society, right?  Anyway, I'm getting off track.  So, I asked God to take tv away.  Within that week, as I was watching the Simpson's and folding laundry, the television became black except for a line running along the middle of the screen horizontally.  I could still hear the tv, but ironically, the only way I could see the show, was if I nodded my head like some crazy idiot (too self indulged to notice what would be considered a worship of an idol...)  Well, that's how it seemed to me at the time.  Now, I don't miss tv.  I don't care that the screen writers went on strike.  I would rather make memories, than watch my life into forgetfulness, meaningless, and emptiness.  

I'm going into a spiel - that's the spell I'm under when I smoke - - - oops.  I'd better go. 

Fun emailing you,
Ezrah
 

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1-4-08

Hi Ezrah,
    I can't believe I forgot to mention when I stopped by today, but I just wanted to thank you for signing my guestbook.  I knew I was forgetting something today.  Thank you so much for that hit of KB.
    Every entry in my guestbook is just extra confirmation that I'm right.  Eventually it will pile up enough to be proof.  I really appreciate it.  I'm all stoned, hehe.

Peace, muh sista,
 

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1-5-08

Hi Ezrah,
     I got a full eight hours of sleep last night and I'm feeling good.  Not to mention I had an unexpected wake and bake 
with some KB dust I found in my little container and a little resin(nature's bonus).  I smiled real big when I came inside 
and checked my email and had mail from you.  
     I see absolutely no point in voting.  Only the people they want to win elections, win elections.  If votes really 
counted Al Gore would be our current president.  
     I mean, look at how well the economy was with Bill Clinton, the surpluses.  He wasn't re-elected for nothing.  
(Even though I still think Bill Clinton is a reptile.  Hillary too.)  What better man to take his place than his right-hand 
man who's already used to his system?  Gore had the popular votes.  It was that electoral-college bullshit they used as 
their high-card.  Oh, and what a coinkidink that Jeb Bush is the governor of the state that toppled the election.
     Voting is all smoke and mirrors.  It gives people the illusion that they are being represented accurately.  A waste of 
time, in my eyes.  There's no government like no government!  Have you read that part of my website about that random movie 
I downloaded?

http://www.havethisbook.com/ilumovie.htm

     Nothing at all is at it seems.

     9-11 was a controlled demolition.  I don't know how familiar you are with all the conspiracy theories flying around out
 there.  It makes you think though.  I have a copy of that actual movie I can burn for you.
 
     I lived on an organic farm in Paonia, Colorado for a couple months.  I'd get up in the morning and go work in the field
 digging holes and planting seeds.  It was like a commune.  Your dream is possible.  
     I also went to Black Bear Ranch, this hippie commune in a mountain in Northern California.  It was real big in the 
sixties and has so much history.  Check out their website at www.blackbearranch.org.
     I don't think you have that much of a weight problem at all.  Walk it off.  Eating right won't make you lose weight.  
Eating right will help you not gain more.  Exercise and activity is what takes it off.   I'll eat whatever as long as it's edible.  As
long as I'm not hungry anymore, and if it's good for me, even better!  I can't be picky when I'm traveling.
     If I were to be supplied with only vegetarian food, but an unlimited amount of it, I would become a vegetarian.  But 
I'll eat any food for the time being.
 
     I haven't checked your other email with the file attached but I will after I send this.

     Oh yeah, TV rots your brain.  I would probably watch more television if I had a treadmill.  Then it wouldn't be that 
big a waste of time.  All you do when you watch TV is sit there and receive, receive, receive.  There is no interaction 
involved.  It puts you under a spell, in a trance.  TV regresses you back to when you were in the womb also just doing 
nothing but receiving.  It's the plug-in drug.  I have this book I can give you on TV.  Scored it at a thrift store in 
Colorado.
     Money is the false idol being worshiped.  Have you read Autonomy vs Hierarchy on my site?  You should if you haven't:

http://www.havethisbook.com/antimoney.htm

     Ok, I'm going to go to the back porch and take another resin hit.  Oh yeah, I'm going to check that other mail you sent.

Thanks for being so nice,

- Victor Antonio

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Hello Victor,

Glad to give grins :)

Too many mirrors, not enough smoke!  I agree.  I started to suspect this so called life was going awry when I realized that secret societies and the roman catholic church were able to get away with horrific deeds.  It's crazy that I was drawn to it, but once I got into college, I went exploring the internet to the "end of times" search and found lots of obvious signs.  It has to do with all the things we've been telling others.  It includes chemicals in foods that create cravings without providing nourishment.  Pharmaceuticals that ever-so-quickly and readily provide an ignorant people with miracle cures in a pill that only solve the symptom and usually worsen the problem.  And for what?  Money?  And I don't think humans are smart enough on their own to have so smartly deluded their co inhabitants.  I think a higher intelligence was involved.  What, like aliens?  You had mentioned reptiles...yes aliens. 

I do think the 911 was a setup.  And I don't think Bush was behind it.  I think he knew about it, and did nothing about it, but alone, he makes a better hamburger than he does president.  No, he's just a face that we supposedly elected.  I agree with you about elections.  It's been bought out and none of us can buy the corruption that's there now.  Money can't solve problems anyway.  I would say we must revolt.  Our constitution says it's our duty, but I say that the Bible says it's going to happen, like it or not.  The mark of the beast, the numbers 666 are hidden in the bar code in such a way that it represents the wording from the Bible saying it once was, is not, but will be again...  or something to that effect.  It's in revelation.  I know there have been more earthquakes in the last decade than there has been for the last couple of hundred years...  I don't know, the signs seem to be there.  But that's not the core of the discussion.  The real issue is what IS the solution?  I don't know.  I'm not responsible for the world.  I'm responsible to me...  I don't even know what that means.  Anyway, I'm going nowhere right now.  Tired?  Maybe, I'm going to church and going to clean tomorrow.  I need to toss out lots of stuff I don't need anymore.  Lots of stuff to "goodwill".

I'm going to check out your Autonomy vs Hierarchy now. 

Until later,
Ezrah

P.S. Oh, see the attachment for what I've been doing for your shirt.  I'd like to see yours so I can make it look as close to it as possible.  I'm going from memory right now.  I don't know if you have something good to go by on your site, I'll check it out a little later.  Today was a nice day.  Hope your's was too.

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1-6-08

Hi Ezrah,
     I have no doubt that some higher intelligence is pulling the strings for humanity.  It's an agenda that's been in the 
works since the dawn of humanity. It's about time we wake up.  The clock is tickin'.  Will you be ready?  Something might 
happen that has never happened to humans before.  We need to be ready for these new challenges, or else.  Did you ever 
finish reading my Odyssey story, that I started in front of your store.  Do your remember how I talked about the  indian 
medicine woman Fawn Journeyhawk in Oregon?  I don't know what took me so long, but years ago I put her name into a search 
engine and I came up with her Message to All, which she wrote in 2002.  I have a link to it on my website at the end of my
Odyssey story, but in case you haven't read it I'll copy here.
     It's a little out there, but it will make you think.  (If you've already read this, disregard).

     I hope that wasn't too long.  I could've just put the link to it instead:  

http://www.redelk.net/website/fawn.htm

Let me know what you think, Ezrah.  Have a great day!

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  Oh yeah, you never told me if you mind me
posting our emails on my site.

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UPDATED SINCE HERE ON 9-21-08

1-6-08

Ezrah,
     Here's a picture of my current shirt.  Keeping it real simple.  That pdf you sent me, the peace sign is way too big and it separates the four words.  I want to keep the peace sign smaller and underneath the words in the middle.  A big peace sign screams HIPPIE. I'm not a hippie.  Hippies are lazy. 
     And I just might be the happiest man in the world, but I'm not gay.  I wear the rainbow colors because I am a beam of light for others to follow.  Ahh, I've been using that line for years, hehe.  Valid justification for my Rainbow Beanie(which I've been wearing for about five years straight, an integral part of my uniform, oh yeah, I found it!).  :P 

Peace, love and hippie shit,

- Victor the Liberator

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1-6-08

Hi Ezrah,
     I thought I'd give you a sneak-peak of my walks around the loop, without having to wait for me to post them on my site. 
     I first walked around Loop 410 on December 19th and 20th.  Ten days later I walked around it the other way.  I have already uploaded all the pictures to my
website, so all the links should work.  I am assuming you have broadband internet or else it might take a while to load each picture. 
     Hope you don't mind being inundated with reading material.  Read it when you get the chance, I know you're a busy woman.

- Victor Antonio

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1-7-08

Hello Victor,
 
 My eyes poured over your journals, good ness!
 
 I'm kinda tired from reading it.  I'm not sleep yet, but I feel worn.  Not enough walking I suppose.
 
 Keep living your dreams mister :)
 
 Laters.

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1-7-08

Hi Ezrah,
     That's pretty much exactly how I want the words. Maybe the peace sign a little smaller.  I want a more basic font.  Maybe teletype(if I'm thinking right).  I
just want it to be default text.
     Logging my life has become an accustomed habit. Second nature now.  I hate having long gaps where I don't record stuff.  Feels like I'm wasting history. 
     I've gone on day-long typing sprees before.  Like from when the sun came up until it came down.  That was basically when I would come back from my trips and have all my cassettes stockpiled. 
     But when I'm at home and have access to a computer whenever I want I try to catch up and then type up yesterday every day. 
     I have all the days up until now ready to be added to my site.  All the days until yesterday.  So when we leave I'll throw them on there with pictures and everything.   
     I don't know about this other dude.  Exactly what would you need me to do?  I am extremely tied up with this little mission of mine, so I couldn't help any
time soon.  I'm leaving soon on my East Coast trip. Maybe after I get back and I need money for some reason(which I sincerely doubt, but anything is possible).  That is, if I don't get shot. :P
     I mean, do you know roundabouts of when you are leaving to Houston?  I don't want to count my chickens.  Some things seem too good to be true, hehe.
   
     Aww, I'm sorry about your predicament with smoking.  Just hang in there, I'm working on it.

Peace,

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  Read the other ones when you get the chance.  No hurry.

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 Hello Victor,
 
 If it's ok, I'll work on getting it closer to what you want tomorrow.
 
 You do seem to be quite a busy guy.  It's all the better if you get your goal accomplished, I hope you never get shot or tased and that nothing bad
 happens to you in your experiences and I'm really glad that you are getting to experience... life on a more personal level everyday.  I don't think it's
 a waste of time.  My husband displayed some annoyance about you today that I shouldn't allow myself to become so good of friends with you because he
 thinks you free load and what not.  I really didn't know what to say, I was hurt that he was angry and throwing darts at someone who has commissioned
 and lived on his own principles.  I admire you, Tim thinks you are probably a cool person, but I feel like he is warning me to keep a barrier up.  I
 respect him, I know he's looking out for me.  So, anyway, I don't know when I'm going to Houston, whether it be sooner than later.  Tim's schedule may
 change to that we don't get our glorious weekends together, so I can't commit to being able to take you, I'm sorry.  If something happens though, I
 will tell you - I wanted to help you.
 
 The other guy - well, he flies hot air balloons, he's a tall elderly man, around 70 or so, very skinny and friendly.  He's got a fun history of where his life has taken him.  I met him when I went to a meeting for sustainable housing.  He has had a farmhouse built on land that he owned made of strawbale.  He's owned an inn on the river, his daughter is a world renown singer names Chrysta Bell, and he paid for me to go to something called the Landmark Forum.  It was a $440 event!  Anyway, he wants to get his story written down so that he can give his daughter a book.  What I had done was go to his place and record what he would say, then I planned to type it all up and begin making his story come together once I saw all the details in front of me.  I never got to writing his stuff down, that's where I'm stuck.  I don't know if you'd be willing to just type up what I've recorded.  We can trade services.  It's up to you.  You don't have to do anything for him if you don't want to.  It's really my deal, I just got all stuck with the typing stuff up.  I gotta find everything and just do it... one day!
 
 Whoa, nature calls in more than one way.  Time to sleep - tomorrow is another day!
 Ezrah

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1-8-08

If all you need me to do is transcribe a recording, peace of cake.  How long a recording are we talking?

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1-8-08

Dear Victor,

 Really?!  That would be such a relief!

 I have to find the little tapes I used.  I don't think it's that much, but I'm not sure.  I'll hunt them down when I come back from work today and tell you what I've got.  THANKS!

 I gotta get ready for work, so bye for now,
 Ezrah

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'ello Victor,
 
 what size shirt do you want?
 
 want a long sleeve white and a short sleeve white?  Let me know so I can order it for you with the rest of the t shirt order we have to make.
 
 Ezrah

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1-10-08

Just a plain large will do.  Can you give me a total? Also, you said me doing the printing might bring the cost down?  I only need a short sleeve, but if it's not too expensive I guess a long sleeve wouldn't hurt too.

- Victor Antonio

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1-10-08

Hi Ezrah,
     Would it be too complicated or make it cost way more if it was a black t-shirt with white lettering? Much like my Fuck Bush shirt that I am wearing on my
website.

- Victor Antonio

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Oh yes, and we can't forget 'havethisbook.com' on the back.  Without the wwww.

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1-10-08

wow, I forgot about that!

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1-11-08

 Hello Victor,

 I seem to have been a little neglectful, I'm sorry!  You asked about a black shirt with white letters.  Same price, we have to get the material for a black iron on          transfer, however, it doesn't look right.  It's hard to explain, but I'll try.  You see, printers don't print white, so I would have to print a reverse image to get white   letters.  So I would get an all black image with your text being in white.  Unfortunately when you are dealing with blacks, there are different shades of black,
 there's no pure black. The best options for dark shirts is to screen print, but, it's a process!  I think it would mean the cost of your shirt, plus the cost of the screen
 ($6.50) plus the cost of the labor to make the one shirt.  So, I'd say about $20 for the shirt?  I'll have to verify that though.   I just need to ask. You want your WPTMJ to be this way?  Or FUCK BUSH?

 As for the other shirt, the one that just needs "havethisbook.com" Check out the attachement.  I think we can do it all on one piece of transfer.  I have to research the price again, but I think it's in one our emails.  I keep forgetting to tell the boss about ordering your shirt, so I haven't done that yet.  Sorry, he's in and out a lot and I get flustered easily when there's too much going on.  Wonder what being stoned at work would be like. When I got back in from the time you smoked me
out, I had been burning cd's and I had to not do that anymore because I was afraid I might screw myself over.  So I did something else and told the boss I should leave early.  I told him I was high too, he just laughed.  It wasn't a big deal, so that was cool.


 I just wanted to say I don't care what Tim thinks about you.  I have enjoyed emailing you because I find that within the correspondence there is a depth of knowledge that my husband doesn't understand.  Few people really think it could work, fewer are daring enough to live it.  If I feel stuck in my situation, it would seem to reflect a certain faithlessness in the God or universe I tell myself I so completely trust.  On a note of trust,  do you happen to know any open sources?  Tim said something at work about GrabIt, a great open source, so he's pissed with himself because he thinks he led the path for GrabIt's low resource problem...  I hope
he doesn't do that again. Maybe it's best not to ask with that reasoning.  That sucks because we got lots of great stuff from there ;)

I hope it doesn't sound inappropriate.  I sorta missed you, so I went to read about you online.  I wonder if one day you'll be some sort of hero. That would be cool.  I hope I'm a hero too, I want to help others know that they can do great things and not need industry of anything else to live well.  As a matter of fact, if neighborhoods took down their fences and lives like close-knit communities, we'd finally be on a better track!

About your dark transfer shirt, what if you had for example, a black shirt with a red box with white letters that say something in it?  So, that I can cut just the red and the white letters and put it onto your t?  Just an idea.  I'll put it on to your sample I'm sending you so you see what I mean.

 It's gonna be midnight.  Wish the tension would go away.  If only everyone would just smoke some friggin' pot.
 Peace to you,
 Ezrah

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Hey Victor,
 
 Doh!
 
 I forgot to mention something important!  We can barter for the white shirt, I'll even press it for you and you could transcribe for me.  SOund good?
 
 Did you want the dark shirt to say something else?
 
 Cheers,
 Ezrah

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1-12-08

You mean like if I transcribed for you I'd get a free custom-made WPTMJ shirt?  You've got yourself a deal, missy.

- Victor Antonio

:P

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 Hey Victor,
 
 Sorry about my boss.  Work is stress - wish he hadn't been so stupid...
 
 Yes, I agree to the deal :)
 Ezrah

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1-15-08

Haha, it's cool,
     Did you mention to your boss that we had smoked weed in front of the store?  He came outside and told me, "I found out you and Ezrah smoked pot in front of
my store and I don't appreciate that."  I thought about denying it, but figured you might have mentioned it to him, or something.  I laughed at him and said, "That's right, be afraid."  He was all, I'm not afraid!" and walked inside real quick. 
     So I don't know how glad he's going to be that you're making me a shirt at his business.  If all else fails I still have my WPTMJ shirt that I was wearing today.  So if your boss won't let you make my shirt, seeing as he is all anti-marijuana, let me know as soon as possible.  That shirt was the only thing tying me down to San Antonio.  If it's not going to happen in the near future, I need to be in transit again while the weather is still tolerable.
     Now, about the transcribing.  Have you located the recordings?  How much do you need typed up?  Let me know.

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  If you want, I can download that driver for you and burn it to a CD and bring it over.  For you, Ezrah.  Fuck your boss.  Always glad to be of service.
 

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1-15-08

 Hey Victor,

 I've been feeling badly ever since it happened.  I mean, the day we met, I made sure everyone knew that I had done it.  I did that because Joseph had said it would be ok.  Well, if it was really problem, I wish he had just been honest about it to begin with.  If he didn't want me to, I can refrain.  I thought that was all good with him, so I'm sorry he said that to you.  I think Joseph was like that because he didn't want to deal with the real issue.  The real issue was how angry he was with me about me letting you get onto his equipment to set up the printer.  My guess is that he didn't understand that you could do it because he thought I was naive about you.  I was a little anxious about it, I wasn't sure how Joseph would be if you fixed it and he got there while you were working on it.  I knew it wouldn't take very long.  So, I got caught!

 He made sure to tell me, "You just don't know how angry I am with you." All day, I felt bad to my stomach about what had happened and I learned later that Joseph asked Letty about how long you had been there.  About 5-10 minutes.  You would have had the printer working if you hadn't the problems with the internet.  So, I hope he didn't push you away.  He's done that with my clients before!  That's why I want to take my graphics to a whole new and independent level of him.  I don't want to have to go work for him.  He's got several negative strikes from me.  I'd rather work from home with my clients on correspondence and get paid.  It would awesome to not have to drive to work and deal with a mad boss and machines that are broken  - I'm sorry, the printer wasn't working either, I was
 stressed out about that. Anyway, work sucked today, I hope your day was better :)

 I'm trying to get your shirt done without him.  I can pay for the cost of everything and get it done myself and have him take it out at the end of the work week - but I needed that HP printer to make your transfer - - - so, I'll get a walk through from my husband and get it online.  Maybe I should point out to Joseph that you made your website - so putting drivers onto a computer isn't really that hard...  Anyway, that's what Tim said when I told him about what happened.

 You're a good person Victor, I'm sorry my boss completely missed that.  He likes talking to interesting people.  I hope I don't have to keep working for this guy much longer though, I'm really stressed out and not getting to do the things I want to do... life is short.

 I found the tapes!  I don't know what kind of recorder you have, yours looked way more up to date than mine, but mine might have a certain kind of recording tape.  I was going to give you my recorder, the tapes, some batteries and a pen in a bag so you can work on my project.

 Hey, I just remembered something :)  Tim and I are going to buy an inkjet printer.  Then, I can print your shirt from home and press your shirt off the clock.  I hope to get your shirt done by Thursday and make our exchange on Thursday or Friday.  I just got the one shirt though, the white short sleeve one.  I don't know if you were expecting the long sleeve from when we first talked about it.  So, if that's still cool, I'll check you later :)

 Peace,
 Ezrah

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 Hello Victor :)
 
 Ha!  I finally got to read your email about Jade!  The story is fascinating!  It's crazy, you met Crystal who just happens to know the unusual things you have encountered, the taqueria and the quarters. Jade!  I day with you seems fun, relaxed, happy go lucky, and it always seems to work out.  I mean, you finding that bus pass??  That's really great!
 
 So, on another note, I went to get a printer and some transfer paper for your shirt.  The printer is installing right now and taking a long time for some reason...  I hope there isn't a problem.  The boss still hasn't said anything about what happened, so things are a little awkward.  Anyway, he'll let me use his heat press, I just have to log out for the time I do it.  But it's like 15 sec to do one side, so it's not a big deal at all :)  I think your shirt came in today at the shop, so right now,
 we're just waiting for my printer to install.  I'll let you know if there really is some problem with the printer.  I don't mean to delay your project.
 
 I'd better go, I have some things I need to attend to.
 
 Laters friendly brother,
 Ezrah

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1-16-08

Hi Ezrah,
     Tomorrow I am going to get off my ass and go walking.  I've been cooped up in the house spamming my site around the internet.  I need to get some major
walking in before I leave. 
     Yeah, that day with Jade was a roller coaster. I've had a marvelous adventure since I have returned to San Antonio this time around.  I have it all typed up and ready to post with pictures and everything. I'm waiting to update it when I leave.  You'll be on there as well as our whole email-life(unless you want me to exclude anything). 
     I want to get to work on your transcribing.  I might be walking downtown again tomorrow, via Bandera Road.  I'll stop by and say hello and maybe you can give me my project bag.

I'll see you tomorrow if you're working.   

Later, my peaceful sister,

- Victor Antonio
 

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 Hey Victor,
 
 That's really cool.  Thanks.  I was hoping that I could pass on my bag to you so I put the bag in my car this morning :)
 
 Is there some way to contact you by phone in case I can't get you by email. I guess you don't have a phone when you travel, right?  Although the idea of
 walking around the country with a phone and a laptop seems ideal to me and the way I work, I like the idea of getting away from everything much more.
 So if that's the way you do things, it's AWESOME!  I mean, how many problems could you run across if you're not connected to the world?  But you are
 connected, in the best way, through love.
 
 I find myself both jealous and an admirer of you.  I noticed I get a little frazzled when I see you, I'm not sure why, but I'll try to chill...  It might because you're tall, or the fact that I'm stressed out from having to multi task all day at work.  I hope when you come to visit, that I'll have completed your shirt for you.  If you had another phrase you wanted to make with another shirt, what might it be?  Just curious since you don't have the other message to convey - I'm sorry you lost your
 shirt.  Not nice is your family really did throw it away.
 
 Oh, and I was curious, when were you born?
 
 It's supposed to go into freezing temperatures on Friday and Saturday, so be safe my tall victorious brother :)
 
 Ezrah

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Hello once more Victor,

 I don't know if you'll get to this before I go to sleep, but here's what I'm going to print onto the transfer paper.  Also there is a note on the attached document.

 Later Gator!
 Ezrah

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 Oops...  I just remembered I should probably attach your attachment.  My mind is wandering!  Oh and by the way, I learned that the one hitter that you shared with me is supposedly made of aluminum - which if you don't already know is related to Alzheimer's.  Just wanted to tell you because I just found out.
 
 Ezrah

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I'm not going to worry about my aluminum one hitter. Like you know, we might not have that much time left to begin with.  Worrying is like paying interest on a
debt you may never owe.  I live each day like it is my last.  Don't worry, be happy!  Thanks for the warning, anyway.  Thought that counts, sister.

- Victor Antonio

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Ezrah,
     I just got home and just wanted to send you a thank-you note.  I so appreciate that backup-shirt. I'll try to get started typing tomorrow.  I'll have typing/cleaning days and walking days. 
     Today was a walking day, tomorrow I type and clean.  Well, after I get my typing-fuel, hehe.  What time would work for you?  If I feel up to it I'll walk there and just ride the bus home and get to work.  You know me, I walk on a reward-basis.  Ahh, who am I kidding?  I'd walk anyway.

Thanks and praise, sister.

- Victor Antonio

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One good turn deserves another. :]

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I'm not going to worry about my aluminum one hitter. Like you know, we might not have that much time left to begin with.  Worrying is like paying interest on a
debt you may never owe.  I live each day like it is my last.  Don't worry, be happy!  Thanks for the warning, anyway.  Thought that counts, sister.

- Victor Antonio

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OH, I forgot to tell you a time.  Um...  I wish I could know the future so I would know when Joseph won't be there...
 
 How about 10 or 11-ish?

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1-17-08

Ezrah,
     I woke up at five this morning and got seven hours of sleep.  I don't carry a cellphone when I travel.  I love cellphone's actually, OTHER PEOPLE's.
Just how I love kids, hehe.  I travel light.
     Another phrase?  I've streamlined my WPTMJ to just  PEACE THROUGH WEED.  Here is a picture of me with it in Oklahoma City last September.

http://www.havethisbook.com/pix/centralstates/62meinokc.jpg   
     
     I ended up giving that shirt to my dear friend Clea I met in Rolla, Missouri.  She wanted some article of clothing of mine just because it smells like me, she said.
     I was born in Bayamon, Puerto Rico on groundhog's day(Feb 2), 1978.  My family moved to San Antonio when I was three.  I'm an Aquarius.  This is the dawning!
     You should see me today.  I'll probably be taking off soom, around six thirty or so.  It's about six miles from my mom's house to your shop, so you guys
might not be open when I walk by first time, but I think I might just walk back from downtown today too.  So I'll stop by on the way back.
     Thanks for the weather forecast, I never check them.  No one can predict the future! 

Peace and love,

- Victor Antonio

Praise Love!

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1-18-07

Ezrah,
     Does your boss know about the transcribing I am doing for you?  I was magically able to manifest some more resin out of my pipes so I had a good wake-n-bake and started typing up the first tape.  The one that was already in the recorder.  The dude is a little hard to understand, but I think I'm getting it. 
     Also, I was glad to see they were all just sixty minute tapes.  Still, it's a big chore, but I like a challenge.  They could've been ninety minute ones. 
     I am just calling him John because I don't know his name.  Is this dude from San Antonio?  Just wondering. 
     I'm going to catch the bus at 10:09 by my mom's, I'll leave on the 88 at 10:35 and be there about 10:45 or close to eleven.  Do you think Joseph will be there?  If I see his car I'm still going to go say hi to you.

Gonna go get ready,

Peace, sister,

- Victor Antonio

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1-19-08

Good morning, Ezrah,
     I know I made it sound like this would be a piece of cake, but it's going going to take a bit of time to type up all four tapes.  I know you're not in a hurry for it, but since you gave me the project bag I have only gotten as far as typing up, I'm almost finished with Side A of the first tape.  Here, let me show you what I have done so far.  I didn't know his name so I call him John.  Also, wherever you see ??'s, well, it's obvious that's where I wasn't too sure of my understanding of the recording. 
     Let me show you how much I have gotten done so far(attached).  16kb of text in a couple days.  I am estimating 32kb of text per tape.  128kb total typing.
Hmm, so about a week to finish one tape.  I could expect me to have it done in a little less than a month's time. 
     I am not sure I want to wait that long to leave again.  Time is of the essence.  Maybe I bit off a little more than I could chew, hehe.  I know we had a deal, but could I possibly just finish typing up this one tape and I'll do the rest when I come back from my East Coast trip eventually?  I have no idea when that will be.  I never do. 
     Who is this guy again?

1Love,

- Victor Antonio

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Wow Victor,
 
You've done well.  When I was trying to do this I had a hard time, so I appreciate what you've started for me.  Wanna finish with the first tape and we'll call it in for now.  That's ok.  I don't want to keep you from leaving, plus I don't know when I'll get to make your shirt the way you wanted it.  Though, I was wondering if I could ask for the tapes back so maybe I'll get some of it done myself.  Oh, just so you know, the man's name is Dr. A.D. Zucht.  A week is cool, I'm waiting to
order the shirt because if I put it together with a bigger order, there is less of a shipping fee to pay for.  I hope Joseph will make the order soon so I can get yours and mine in.  I wonder how long you'll be gone?  I hope you get to take some magnificent pictures.  Maybe one day, you'll get to publish your book and I can add some graphics to it :)
 
 Again, I really appreciate what you have done so far and I would encourage you to keep going with your goals and climb as high as you can in your endeavors.  I like the stubbornness you talk about having.  We're not guided aimlessly by wind like a falling leaf.  We can choose our direction and I hope that the Lord will compass out your path to be full of adventure and love!
 
 One Love, Amen :)
 Ezrah

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1-21-08

Hi Ezrah,

     It's about ten 'o clock at night and I just finished that first tape[attached].  I've been typing nonstop.  Hope I understood him well enough. 

- Victor Antonio

p.s.  How's the shirt coming along?

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1-22-08

Good Morning Victor,

 I'm going to find out if Joseph is going to order the shirts today.  If he does not, I'll get a white shirt on my own and I'll hope to get your shirt done by either tomorrow or Thursday (with 100% satisfaction ;)  I'll email you when I'm done with it.

 Thank you so much for your effort.  You did a lot of work!  I've got to go for now.  Thank you,

 Ezrah

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Hello Victor.
 
 Joseph did not make the order today and I was planning on picking up your shirt tonight, but I'm having a really bad day, so I'll have to do it tomorrow and smoke until my eyes pop out...
 
 My car got hit this morning, and my step-mother-in-law (fudge! need I say more) badgers me when I wasn't even in the car and it was my car that got hit... I'm really sour right now, so I'll keep this email short....
 
 So, anyway, I noticed that you color coordinated the transcript.  And you made mine purple... cool :)
 
 Bye for now,  I need to scream or move out, I'd like to do them simultaneously!
 
 Ezrah

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1-22-08

Dear Ezrah,
     If you have a problem getting a t-shirt let me know.  I stopped in the family thrift store on Bandera/Woodlawn the other day and they have lots of white t-shirts.  I could probably steal one real easy. It's not like they pay for any of that stuff.  They're making profits on donations.  Evil, I tell you.
     What do you mean I color-coordinated it?  I just typed them up as normal text files(.txt).  I did use an add and replace program to replace all the instances of John: with Dr. Whateverhisnamewas.  Maybe that did something to it, but I doubt it.  I don't know.  If you like how it came out, then I did it on purpose.  Yeah, that's the ticket. 
     I'm all stoned.  Manifested some chronic nuggets walking around the neighborhood again.
     Wait?  Your car got hit and no one was in it? Why does she bitch at you about it?  Like you could have prevented it?  Cars are way more trouble than they are worth.  Cars aren't progress.  They're holding us back.    Cars are wasteful. 
     Didn't mean to get up on my soap-box again, sorry. :P

Everything will be okay.  I promise.

- Victor Antonio

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 Hello Victor,
 
 It's not really a problem, rather more of a delay to get your white shirt in...  I don't like to wait on Joseph, but I know he was supposed to make an order yesterday and he knows that I want 2 more shirts, so please don't steal anything!  I can buy you a white shirt independently, and I had meant to, I just had a shotty day yesterday.
 
 My husband was driving my car to the gas station so he could get oil for his leaking car and he took a turn out of the gas station and got hit.  I was actually quite upset with him because I've told him it's stupid to drive out the way that he did when there is a safer route home...  He doesn't listen to me.  He also doesn't listen to me about what I want.  He is perfectly content drinking beer and playing video games.  I don't know if this is bad, but he went through 18 beers in a week.  And he
 doesn't like it when I tell other people about our problems...  I think I should be concerned about alcoholism.  You know how you feel about cars?  I feel that way about beer and video games.  He makes me feel like I'm ruining all of his fun, but why can't he be more imaginative with his life?  I wish I could move out, just me, on my own, without him... Sorry, I'm just pissed right now... and I want change.  I only peeked into your book so far, but the idea of television is the same as video games.  Imagination is what makes us different and we're being robbed of that.
 
 I don't think cars are progressive either.  When the y2k bug was a threat, I really wanted it to happen.  I wanted all things computerized or electronic to stop working so that we could get back to the basics, learn about one another, relate and really live.
 
 I'm in quite the mood today.  I have to go into work early, maybe I'll have me some smoke before I go...  I don't know though... Nothing feels right, nothing. I'm in a dark corner, within the shadows of shadows, and I just want to stay there and let the world beat me up...  I don't crave defeat, I crave a revolution.
 
 I hope you're right, I'd like for things to be ok, and even better than ok.
 
 Ezrah

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1-23-08

Ezrah,
     Aww, I hate that you're going through all this wrong in your life.  Why aren't thing set straight yet?  When will we ever learn?  A world where wrong has right-of-way?  Fuck that world!  We're not asleep!
     I probably wouldn't have to steal the shirt.  I'd ask first, of course.  You know that shirt I have that says Make It Happen?  Back in 2005 I walked in that same thrift store on Woodlawn and Bandera and found that shirt.  I grabbed it and went up to the counter and told the girl in Spanish, "There's always a shirt waiting for me at the thrift store that belongs to my mission in life.  Can I have this one, please?" and she hooked me up.  That shirt is still, after three years, an integral part of my uniform. 
     To me it doesn't seem like your marriage is very conducive to your happiness.  Isn't that a big point of marriage?  Being happy?  Marriage means for life, right?  So if he doesn't change or even tries, are YOU supposed to be miserable your whole life?  You deserve to be happy, Ezrah.  You're so beautiful. 
     Being addicted to alcohol and unreality(videogames) only works if you're living a solitary-life, unless of course you can find a mate that has the same addictions.  What are the chances of that really happening? 
     The chances are greater if you're not in denial about it and actually try finding that mate.  Instead of being with someone who doesn't share your addictions and neglecting real people you supposedly love.  Reality can be so much more rewarding. 
     Remember, alcohol breeds ignorance!  That's why it's legal!  Ignorant people are easy to control!  The government knows this!  It's all part of their plan!
     Read that book whenever you get the chance.  I haven't read it all myself, just thought you might appreciate it.  I recalled you mentioning something about having a problem with TV growing up and I thought of you when I found it.
     18 beers in a week?  That's like two or three beers a day.  There are people who drink way more, but we don't need to drink ANY beer.  Bet you ten bucks he
doesn't start drinking less.  He's just stepping in the wrong direction.
     Wish I could make it happen sooner.  Sooner than you'd think is all I can predict.  Expect the unexpected!
     I really hope your day gets better, Ezrah.  I will project you some good synchronous vibes. 

Peace and love forever and ever, Awomen.

- Victor Antonio
   
P.S.  Turn that frown upside-down.  :[ = :]     

Be the best?  Climb the ladder?  Do it better, higher, faster?  I refuse to participate.

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Hello Victor,

 I hope I don't stay in this mood for long.  Wish I could smoke from the biggest and best joint in the world!!!

 Your shirt will get ordered today, I think it will come in on Friday, maybe tomorrow.  Can't write much... too many damn people!

 Ezrah

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1-24-08

Hello Victor,
 
 I hope things are going well for you.  Your shirt came in today so, this evening, I plan to print out the transfers for your shirt and tomorrow, I'll heat press them...
 
 I wish I could write more, but I'm still at work and the phone keeps ringing.  I had an interview and I wanted to share that with you!  I hope I get to work there, it sounds like a great opportunity!
 
 I'm listening to something about chemtrails.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8087507470999056243&q=chem+trails&total=3570&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=3

 The lady talking sounds old, but she makes sense...
 
 Peace and Love!
 Ezrah

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1-24-08

Hi Ezrah,
     I was thinking about emailing you today, just to see if you were doing any better.  Surprise, you emailed me first.  Total congratulations on your positive future employment prospect.  I hope it's better than IU. 
     I'm getting ancy and itching to leave already.  I've been neglecting my walking lately, but I've had lots to do on the computer.  I spent all night and today backing stuff up and reformatting the hard drive and reinstalling Windows.  It's been a pain in the ass but I've stayed on top of it all.
     Thanks for that chemtrails movie.  As soon as I download my website editor I'm going to link it on my website along with some other good NWO movies I
stumbled onto after seeing the chemtrail one. 
     That was a really long sentence.  There probably should be a comma somewhere.  I'm all stoned.  Look at the third sentence in the first paragraoh, hehe.  :P

     Well, I'm wishing things will come up roses for you, Ezrah.  Thanks for being my friend.  Thanks for the shirt most of all.

1love,

- Victor Antonio

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1-25-08

Hello Victor,

 Things will get sunshiny soon :)  I'm trying to laugh and smile and even cry to get myself through to that wonderful place that I know exists and is waiting for me.  the Bible says the kingdom of God is at hand, so I wonder if that means I can make my own heaven?    I don't understand everything in the Bible, but it's interesting to me.  Have you ever read Ezekiel?  That's some crazy shit!  I can't even conceive what he is describing.

 I'm still out of sorts, wish it was self induced
 ;)

  gotta go!
 Ezrah

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Oh P.S.
 My boss is in a bad mood.  Wanna meet somewhere else so we can exchange? I'm going to get out of work at 2, and I'll need to do that shirt after I clock out, so I'm thinking around 4 or so we can meet somewhere. I have to pick up my husband at 430, so maybe after that...  I don't know.
 
 Ok, that's it for the PS... Ezrah

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1-25-08

Sorry, I hadn't checked my email in a while.  Do you think we could still meet today?  If not, tomorrow will be cool.  Whatever works best for you.

- Victor Antonio

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Hello Victor,

I just got in, it's been a long day.  I'm feeling kinda grumpy and wanna stay in for the evening.  I'm liking option 2...wanna meet then?  Where's a good place to meet?  I guess sometime before 2 is good, you can give me a call, ok?  210.000.0000.

Laters...
Ezrah

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Ezrah,
     Ahh, I tottally spaced it.  I went for another walk in the neighborhood and got high with a little help from my friends.  It's almost midnight.
     Umm, we could meet anywhere tomorrow.  I could ride the bus wherever would be most convenient for you.  I still have about five days left on that January bus pass I found.  Let me know.

 Much love,

 - Victor Antonio

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Pleasant Morning Victor!
 
 I'm glad the sun has reappeared, though through a misty haze of the doubtless smog, light reflects upon my heart and lifts it up once again. Well, that or I'm just happy that today is my sabbath day - my official day of no work :)  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh....
 
 Hmmm....  where's a good place to meet?  I wish I didn't live with the in-laws or else I'd have you come on over.  They are white conservative know-it-alls that seem to have good intention, but never let seeds mature into their true potential.  This is why it is imperative that Tim and I leave here and have a place of our own.  Something nice, as we are both particular, we seem to have conservative taste, yet liberal habits ;)  We just got a nice hookah too.  I don't know why I like to smoke.  It's not really like it makes a difference seeing the air quality we have these days.  I imagine you get a good look and feel for it since you're out a lot.
 
 I am looking forward to seeing you today.  I have an idea!  Let's meet at McAllister Park.  We can walk together for a while (after spending a minute or two in the car for some smoked turkey ;)  I'll bring the shirt and if you would bring the project bag, it should be cool.  What do you think?  Maybe we can meet around noon?
 
 I'm glad I've never had to deal with computers the way that you and Tim have.  It sounds long and trying.  I'm glad you have the knowledge though. I explained to Joseph that we are exchanging services and he cut me off saying effectively - it's whatever, you do what you do, I don't care...
 
 Anyway, that'll do for the moment.  I need to bake a little and ponder for longer.  I love to ponder :)
 
 Smiles and miles to you brother,
 Ezrah

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1-26-08

Mccalister Park at noon.  Leaving now.

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2-2-08

 Happy Birthday Victor!
 I hope you get lots of green today!
 Do people like the shirt?
 
 I don't know if you get to read anything in Ezekiel, but I wanted to read something in the Bible today, so the most High showed me this.  I like these sorts of passages because of the mystery in it.
 
 Some things you might find interesting :  AMERO
 
 To me, it all points to change.  Change, there's an end... an end of something, but I remember that there is also forever and ever...  the most High is forever and ever, wouldn't you agree?
 
 Have an awesome day, we'll see what happens to me.  I've got a rental car that's really fun!  I want to see if maybe AD will want to go out to his place in La Vernia and we'll do some book stuff.
 
 Take care.  Love, Peace, Praise the most High :)
 
 Ezrah

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Hello my dear friend Ezrah,
     It's my birthday!  Ahh, it's just like any other day.  I don't celebrate holidays.  I celebrate every day. 
     I am sooo ready to go.  Tonight's the night.  I have been equipped to near-perfection for this trip.  Remember that purse I used to wear on my back?  The
one with the almost broken straps?  Well, I went gonzo cleaning my friends house.  It was a pig sty.  They hadn't cleaned it in about seven years.  Anyway, I
found a badass little camping backpack cleaning their house.  I can retire my purse. 
     My mom also bought me new boots.  I'm ready for lift-off. 
     I don't have time to read that stuff now, I'm busy getting my website ready to update.  I'll be doing that tonight.  I'm still proofreading and adding pictures.  I'll keep you updated.

Peace, Love and magic,

- Victor Antonio

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6-29-08

 Hi Victor -
 
 It's been a while since I've talked or emailed you!  Wow - many things have happened, I'm happy for it.  I have been at another job for a few months now and am doing very well there, but as you know I have a dream that extends beyond sitting behind a desk for 8 hours a day only to come home and do the same thing.  I've managed to get some land, I'm going to move out to it soon and begin to develop it.  My job has said that it doesn't see why I can't do the work from a distance, so though I'll be spending a little less time on projects, I will be doing my dream.  I haven't told anyone else except my husband who isn't quite ready to make the move with me, so I'll be lonely save for the handful of people I already know.  I figure I only have this one life to live and I should try doing the things I want to do, rather than what's expected of me and what inevitably makes me unhappy...  I wanted to let you know since you were a very encouraging factor -  Also, I'm seeing things a lot differently.  I'm not sure what parts of the Bible are true, but I know there's a lot more going on than we make of it. Ever heard of Jordan Maxwell?  I don't want me to be the big joke all because church has got me scared into thinking I'll go to hell - what if living is hell?  Living and breathing in toxicity, without love, that's hell and we're supposed to pay for it?  Wow... right?
 
 Anyway, just an update.  I have a laptop that I'll be taking with me and I'm going to see if my printer and scanner will work as well, so maybe I can continue doing stuff for you or at least send you pictures.  I know I'm going to improve dramatically.  I'm looking forward to it :)
 
 Love & Peace,
 Ezrah
 

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6-29-08

Hi my dear Ezrah,
     I am currently in Huntington, WV doing my thang hardcore.  Your husband won't be moving with you to your new land?  Total bummer.  Where is your land?  How much land?  You better be a good steward, :].  What kind of job can you do remotely?
     Yeah, the Bible is an ages-old story.  It's been translated so many times I can't believe it.  We need an update badly.  Times change.  Christianity is the world's greatest hoax, if you ask me.  It's simply a way of controlling people and suggesting a "right" way to live.  Religion is division.  There's only one LOVE!  Praise love.  It's all we need.
     Living is not hell.  Living how the government wants us to live is hell.  The government has turned us all into mindless slaves dead-set on raping the planet.  Since we reap what we sow, payback will be a huge bitch.  Justice will be done.
     Fear.  Without fear religions are totally ineffective.  Failure is completely based on fear.  Once I learned, for a fact, that every single thing happens for a reason, even the bad stuff, I'm just not scared anymore.  I've almost died twice.  I have nothing to lose.  My name ain't Victor for nuthin'.  Hehe, I'm almost sure I'm repeating myself.  Me and my personal scripture.  I'm still crazy a